B.K. Olivia

thoughts no one asked for

Tag: Personal

  • Memories of People: Tokyo in 2019

    Memories of People: Tokyo in 2019

    The people and memories made that trip worth it and I still close my eyes and imagine myself back there in those moments every now and then.

  • 猫: Cat

    猫: Cat

    Why does he sit with me? Where does he think I go during the day? Does he count down the minutes until I come home?

  • Benched

    Benched

    At the age of fifteen, I would sit on a park bench every morning and watch ducks as they waded across a lake. Each morning my mother would drop me off at the coffee shop as she drove my sisters to school. She always said goodbye with a big smile. My little sister was only…

  • Am I Homesick or Lonely?

    Am I Homesick or Lonely?

    Sometimes I lay awake at night and wonder if I’m not doing enough, pressuring myself for not fitting to the historical timeline for a woman my age (where’s my husband? my child? why am I penniless and renting?). Even when I decide I am content where I am, the demons return. Telling me I would…

  • Twenty-Two in Tokyo

    Twenty-Two in Tokyo

    I’d been struggling with one thing—my identity between who I thought I was, who I wanted to be, and who I was forced to be at home.